not controlling

The state of enlightenment is not a state of being in control; quite the opposite. In this state, one has surrendered to life so totally that one is carried by the flow of life, in a way which is unpredictable and uncontrolled.

In fact, control was an illusion all along. And with that illusion of control, comes a sense of separation. There is the controller and that which is being controlled. In fact the sense of separation and the sense of being in control are one and the same energy; an illusory energy of the mind as it turns out.

Of course, if you want to merge with something then you can no longer be in control of it. So to merge with existence itself, to merge with life, the flow of life, one has to surrender this control, this feeling of being in control. And that of course, is not what the ego wants to do. For the ego is that controlling self. And so, the only way for it to come about, is to look into this feeling of being in control and see its falseness. Just watch in your day-to-day life. Many little things will happen which you have no control over; which you did not even predict as a possibility before they happened. And if something has not even come into your mind as a possibility, how can you hope to control it? No.

Life is a beautiful flow of happenstances, chaotic and unpredictable, and certainly uncontrollable. And it is only fear that stops us from accepting this uncontrollability of life. Look into your fears. They also are unfounded. They also are of an illusory nature. The more you can surrender to the flow of life, the less control you insist on trying to exert over existence, the more relaxed you can be. And the more you will be carried, carried by the flow. Then of course you can enjoy.

Until then, there will be a tension in you; a tension which will be felt as uncomfortable. Even in the most pleasurable of times, a part of you will need to be tense to maintain the sense of control. Let go of all that. It has no reality anyway. Tis your mind deluding itself for the sake of a sense of security. Drop the need for security, drop the need to feel in control, and life will flower for you, in you, through you. So let go of that need. For in reality, there is no you to be in control. You are not in control of anything. Accept it and enjoy.